i was looking at videos. of people doing the ballet dances that i used to do for my exams many years ago. as i look back, it seemed like a really really long time since i stopped doing ballet regularly. haha. it was like a good 6 years ago. haha!!!
i suddenly miss it so much, that while watching, i stood up and began prancing around my room trying my best to remember every move, and every feeling that went into the move. haha. i recall the days i practised all day and sometimes till late in the evening at the studio, at home. with that same music playing on and on. in the past it was sometimes like a dread. i often thought of calling it quits with ballet, but i am glad i never did (with alot of encouragement by my mum). but the joy of dancing comes when you have perfected every move and knew that you danced better this time than the last. it’s like you blend fully into the dance moves, and your thoughts and feelings flow into one being. they say a dancer expresses through her dance. i know how that feels. i know how that works. and i miss that so much. it’s more than sweating it out. haha. i had so much team work in the last few years that i did ballet. and those were amazing times. the best of friends i have made from there, because we improved together, got scolded together, blur together (actually i think i was the one who was blurring all the time), and “had the face but no feet together”. haha.
im very thankful that in every exam, i gave my best shot. ballet exams are one of the things that ive given my 110% to since i was very young. i went for many many practices, and gave my best performance to the best of my ability. so till today, i have no regrets about my whole journey in it. because i know i did my very best in every one of those exams, and even if i could turn back the clock. there would be no way that i could have done even more.
ballet will always have that special place in my heart ((: my ballet moves may never be for public display, but it’ll always stay in the private setting. DANCE and keep on dancing!
