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alice in wonderland June 23, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 7:12 am

on the flight back this trip, i broke my own record in watching movies.  but one inspired me more than others – alice in wonderland.

one of the main themes that inspired me from the movie was that of courage.  the courage to pursue what that is in your heart, and to obey that voice in your heart is sometimes a real challenge especially when all odds seem to be against you, or when public opinion requires you to behave in a certain manner.  but it led me to think a little further, that if one succeeds in following the voice of their hearts, they become the unique individual that they were created to be. to achieve outside the norm and to reach plains that were previously untapped. that all takes courage.

 

Jesus Draw Me Close February 10, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 7:41 am

Ive been listening to this song for the past few days: Jesus draw me close.

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The lyrics are as follows:

Jesus draw me close,

Closer Lord to You.

Let the world around me

Fade away

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Jesus draw me close

Closer Lord to You

For i desire

To worship and obey.

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Even though the song only contains 2 stanzas, it became my meditation for the week, and my eyes began to see the little things in my life that God does for me.  Sometimes we grow older, and we dont see or dont get as excited about the little things that God does for us in our everyday walk.  One day my prayer was, God take me back to the old days where everyday would be such a fun experience with You, and my eyes would see your love and presence in my life.  Thinking back, I know God has been there to be my answer to my prayers. Each thought I had in my mind, He held in His heart, and executed them into action and reality.  Each emotion that I felt, He showed to me that it mattered alot, at least to Him, and He helped me to walk on sunshine each day (:

 

another milestone December 17, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 10:04 am

i need to proclaim this for the world to know: I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH THIS SCHOOL TERM!

haha. i think i have never been this relieved and happy that i am actually done with a school term.  end of school terms usually leave me a little nostalgic and somewhat longing.  but this term, it’s like every bit of my excitement and enthusiasm has slowly been zapped up little by little by the deadlines and papers.  but the goodness of God is always something that i can celebrate in my life. because as i look back, if not because of Him and all the people who came by my way, i would have long given up.  (:

now it is really time to pack up bits of this term all around my room (notes, books, and what not).  all the things strewn all around.  time to pack you up, keep or sell you, depending on how wanted you are. bye school 2009. hello holiday! ((:

 

snippets of thought. December 4, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 6:54 am

hmm #1:

i was listening to this song that pastor kong wrote. i was listening to the lyrics, and i was reminded of one session during one year’s emerge conference.  i dont exactly remember what he preached that day, but in the middle of his preaching, he wanted to illustrate how he worshipped God in his own prayer closet.  he sat down on the steps of the stage, had a guitar in his hand, and he began to strum and sing a very old and simple worship song.it was not a sing along session that he was advocating.  as he sang, the room became saturated with the presence of God. it was one session that went with me for a  long long time. i saw his sincere love towards God that drew down His presence. and i have since been deeply touched.

hmm #2:

i turned in my 11th essay of the term today! thinking back about everything, i realized that no matter how difficult the journey has been, i have been in good hands.  when you are in the hands of the Father, you are in good hands.  look at what is on your plate, do it with the best of your ability and effort, then the rest will be entrusted to the world’s best.  the going may have been difficult, but im grateful and loved. (: thank You my Almighty Father!! ❤

hmm #3:

it’s time for final exams!! study time! (:

hmm #4:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANIA!!!!!

 

bits of life November 7, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 10:16 am

我突然好想用中文写下我的感想。

自从开学以后我一直忙进忙出,为了功课烦恼了不少。有时候真的觉得很疲倦,而且很想放弃。可是一直告诉自己一定要坚持到底,因为过程非常重要。在这艰难的过程中上帝一定有事物让我学习。我不放弃因为我知道有上帝在我身旁,我一定能克服所有阻拦我的障碍,获得最后的胜利。在艰难中有很多考验,我的个性,为人处方,耐性等都不被赦免。我想这一切的一切都会让我变成一个更好的人。

在一切的挣扎中我仍然深受感恩,因为身边的朋友总是不断地鼓励我,告诉我这些是短暂的。一切都会过去,但从中学习的宝贵经验会一直的延续下去。我也许没有任何的表示,可是我是听进去了,而且也非常的感激。谢谢!

disclaimer: the below is not a translation of the above writing.

 

i read a book entitled “the goal” by Dr. Eliyahu M. Goldratt.  i havent actually read an entire book for quite a while, but this book was a real treat for me.  i couldnt put the book down, partly because i had to write a review for the book for my take home mid term, but very largely because the book really grabbed my attention.  it has been a while since i read something that left me feeling inspired.  i could understand why my prof would say that he would read that book to be inspired every few years.  it does have that impact.

the book has many facets to it, and one very obvious one is in terms of bringing to live a new concept of the theory of constraints, which revolutionalized process management.  other than reading about how the process in the firm has changed, resulting in great improvements in the productivity of the factory, it goes deeper.  written as a novel, it brings to life characters in the book, their struggles, and their thought processes.  that was probably the most inspiring for me. i read about how Alex struggled to revive the plant from one that was closing down, to one that brought the greatest profits in the span of 3 months.  it had so much involved.  his world was not perfect, and his situation was far from perfection. he had to deal with problems in his family, his relationship with his wife, convincing the people who worked with him, and to find and relentlessly look for his mentor.  in the imperfection, he worked hard, tried everything he could, and refused to give up.  he tried and kept on trying when problems surfaced one after another.  he changed the way things were conventionally thought of and done, and that lit a spark in the people he worked closely with.  because of the success achieved, it created an excitement and enthusiasm in the people he worked with.  they all became people who loved what they did and was constantly looking for ways of improvement, to better the system, and to solve problems.  work became a challenge instead of a routine, and wanting to be part of the positive change was so deep in them by the end of it all.  i saw how inspired the people in the book were, and i could imagine the kind of motivation that gave them. i smiled because i could imagine the satisfaction and joy, the motivation and strength that a deeply inspired indicidual could achieve. when one is inspired to love doing what they do, it brings about the best in them, and can exhibit the most positive change in society.

Be inspired to love what you do, to do what you do excellently, and become the most positive change in the world you live in!

 

Because of You October 2, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 7:53 pm

one song that has been playing in my head alot these days (:

(Verse 1)
Because of You, I was born again
Because of You, I’m ransomed by Your grace
Because of You, my heart has found a home
A refuge for my soul

Because of You, sins are washed away
Because of You, heaven knows my name
Because of You, I can live again
You’ve broken every chain

(Chorus)
Unfailing Love, so unreserved
You gave Yourself on Calvary
And now I stand, forever free
My Saviour rescued me.

(Verse 2)
Because of You, the weak say “I am strong”
Because of You, the broken have a song
Because of You, there’s no need to fear
Hope steadfast, ever sure

(Bridge)
Now heaven, be open
Our God is, unshaken
We worship, Christ risen
High above

Now heaven, be open
All kingdoms, all nations
Declare that “You are God”

 

thoughts of summer and all September 10, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 7:21 pm

summer was fantastic! holidaying with the girls was alot of fun. but beyond that, we all knew that God was with us. from the late bookings which managed to actually land up with spots on the cruise, and from all the right shore excursions we picked, to the things that we did and did not do. everything was just perfect, and i did not think it could have been any better. (:

my favourite shot of them all, at one of my most loved places – santorini:

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and since my holiday ended, i have been back in vancouver. as i worked the first shift of the first day at school, my supervisor commented about how nice it was to be returning to school and not coming in as a first year. haha. i remember the nerves that came with first year, first day of school. haha. it sure isnt something i would be most excited to relive, but i definitely do enjoy school. haha. im jus easing back in to school, with a few new things to adapt to, and im looking forward to a very very enjoyable term (:

 

just thinking ballet July 24, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 8:03 am

i was looking at videos. of people doing the ballet dances that i used to do for my exams many years ago. as i look back, it seemed like a really really long time since i stopped doing ballet regularly. haha. it was like a good 6 years ago. haha!!!

i suddenly miss it so much, that while watching, i stood up and began prancing around my room trying my best to remember every move, and every feeling that went into the move. haha. i recall the days i practised all day and sometimes till late in the evening at the studio, at home. with that same music playing on and on. in the past it was sometimes like a dread. i often thought of calling it quits with ballet, but i am glad i never did (with alot of encouragement by my mum).  but the joy of dancing comes when you have perfected every move and knew that you danced better this time than the last.  it’s like you blend fully into the dance moves, and your thoughts and feelings flow into one being.  they say a dancer expresses through her dance. i know how that feels. i know how that works. and i miss that so much. it’s more than sweating it out. haha. i had so much team work in the last few years that i did ballet. and those were amazing times.  the best of friends i have made from there, because we improved together, got scolded together, blur together (actually i think i was the one who was blurring all the time), and “had the face but no feet together”. haha.

im very thankful that in every exam, i gave my best shot.  ballet exams are one of the things that ive given my 110% to since i was very young. i went for many many practices, and gave my best performance to the best of my ability. so till today, i have no regrets about my whole journey in it. because i know i did my very best in every one of those exams, and even if i could turn back the clock. there would be no way that i could have done even more.

ballet will always have that special place in my heart ((:  my ballet moves may never be for public display, but it’ll always stay in the private setting. DANCE and keep on dancing!

 

when you begin with faith July 22, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 8:55 pm

a quote from lilian’s tweet: “wah. this morning i woke up, i keep confessing and believing somehow today will be a victory. and I really got the VICTORY!”
i heard lilian’s story and i heard of her victory.  when i got up monday morning with a rather heavy heart, i read her tweet and i felt very very encouraged.  i prayed to God and asked for victory to come upon me as well. then i got an msg from her telling me that it would be my day of victory.  then i could only say Amen. haha. but it was a struggle to overcome the fleshly emotions and stand in faith.

God is indeed true to his Word that He knows the desires of our heart and when He gives, He gives the best. i applied for a job out of iseng-ness and the whole process was so long.  first they took 3 weeks to reply to my application.  and their reply was a negative one, saying that they were sorry i was not selected for an interview.  i asked for some feedback. and boom. the next email was like a huge turn around.  they told me that they had an unexpected opening in their team and would like to invite me for an interview.  i was already excited. and i went for the interview. i tot i did okay (not too impressive). and in my heart i was so not ready to set myself up for a disappointment.  so i just hoped for the best plan. and it turned out that i got the job!!  the same monday i received the news.  i was elated, overjoyed, and so full of gratitude.  i was so touched, not only because of the job. but i was very touched to know that God cared enough.  He knew what was in my heart and sure knew how to put that smile right back onto my face (:

so when you begin in faith, you will see the victory at the end of the road (:

 

historical thoughts June 16, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — zhenyi @ 7:37 pm

i was in history class yesterday and my prof said something that set me thinking:

when Tsar Nicholas II knew that the war on the Eastern Front was not going well for him, and that defeat was imminent, he could not focus on politics.  When his minister of agriculture came to him to report the agricultural details of the country to him, the Tsar could not be interested.  Instead he was more concerned about the simpler, and finer joys of life such as the minister’s family, children, and the like. 

it was the same with Hitler, when he knew that there was no way Germany would win the war.  Then, he was more interested in architecture. 

i guess the pressure in them was so great that they needed another avenue to try to bring back joy in their lives.  i guess whoever it is, it is very important to keep balance in life.  in persuing your dreams and visions, it is important not to let these things consume your life. the situation of the Tsar and Hitler were probably fundamentally different.  The Tsar was responsible for his position because of his lack of competence, but he was probably there in the first place because of the circumstance.  He was the heir to the throne by birth and was fundamentally a good man who probably was in the wrong position, and doing many wrong things at the wrong time. Hitler in my opinion was just consumed by his own hurts, prejudices, and bitterness.  When success came he just got more and more trapped.  I guess it’s really true that whatever that is built on negative emotions will not last.  only what that is built on love lasts.

both man tried hard. but both ended void of joy and a serene peace in their hearts, that they needed escape routes.  and could not focus on the real dream any longer, with no more perseverance to press on.  in my opinion, one is the combined result of wrong person, wrong actions, and wrong time. the other is probably the trap of trying to build a lasting empire through negative emotions.